I can't believe, I didn't know that friday, 01042011, was Pingting's last training.
What sort of daughter am I? What sort of junior am I?
I'm disappointed at myself.
Disappointed at disappointed at you.
I'm sorry :( I wish we could go back to those times again.
How much fun we had.
Sigh.
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Let's see,
haven't been fine yesterday.
Sudden moodswing, was angry for my skills, etc.
I kept making mistakes, yeah.
Then Carin said she wanna talk, so we went backstage.
And I 'broke down'.
Cried, but I guess nobody except her truly cares.
Haha.
I really thank her though.
And I'm sorry to her.
Then yeah, wanted to vent my anger,
played badminton.
Laughed. Smiled.
My mind became more carefree.
Our last slacking training. Sucks.
I expected it to be better.
Why?
All my expectations just end up being disappointments.
I'm tired of expecting.
I'm really tired.
Just so sick and tired of this fact.
I prayed for happiness.
I know, maybe it takes time, but I really can't take it anymore.
Ah.
Sometimes I just really hate myself, you know?
Nobody cares.
You, you, you, you, everyone, don't bother. Life's more than this.